Catatan Kecil

Dengan langkah gontai aku menapaki jalan perjalanku yang terjal dan panjang ini, remuk redam badanku di hatam gelombang badai kehidupan yang pahit ini. hati yang pilu, kesepian yang menyayatku dan masalah yang merobek-robek fikiranku. aku terkubur dalam bulan-bulanan nasib yang tak berpihak padaku. keputusasaan yang mencekik dan menciutkan hatiku membuatku semakin berat dalam menapaki jalan kehidupanku.
Entah kapan kematian akan menjemputku, membawaku ke pintu siksaan yang baru. hatiku yang kering dan keyakinanku yang mulai retak, tak mampu lagi melindungiku. harapan seterang matahari yang ku bawa sebagai penerang jalanku kini sudah redup dan mulai membutakan mataku. jalan yang kukira akan begitu menyenangkan malah menjadi kuburan bagiku

new life

There is no more time to be whine guy, there is also no more time to beef about my problem. I am sure that I can handle it, I am sure this is the way of destiny to make me becoming a real man. Time will answer whether I am wrong or not, and time also will prove anything. Many paths to be a success, success are not only in this suck school. I will prove it.
It is time to wake up, realize that many things that should I do. Even though many people try to kill me but I think they realize yet that what they do is useless. Hehehe. Say goodbye to the Dark Age, and welcome to new life. I love this world so much.

is me

Try to think the right path that I have to choose, when problem come that made many solutions. World is no longer beautiful like a dream, now I know that world is full of challenges. Depression made me cannot think wisely and sometime made me becoming a hopeless person. Many people hate me and many people try to kill my character in front of the other. Too many enemies in my life, they made new problem day by day. Every breath that I take is hurt me, and there is no one can help me. There is no one can exclude me from this suck world and there is no one who expects me. I feel lonely and feel like a useless person, is suck. .
I try to refresh my brain with do everything that can make me feels better but that is useless. Suddenly, she come and remains me that I am not alone and she said that she always with me. She also said that I have to struggle to challenge these challenges because of “man is not born but made”. Ok, I got it. I am a man and these challenges will made me becoming a real man. Thank you my dear. .

marginal people

This words remains me about song of mxpx, the title is marginal people. Feel lonely in the ado, no friend, and everyone kick me out in their life. In this world I am a marginal people. But, who scared? They think that I will die if they not besides me, they think that I am will be stupid if they not help me and they think if they marginalize me they will win to get anything what they want. They forgot about who am I.

Today I decide that I will avoid them, life among the hedonist people, and life among crafty people it’s hell to me. They do many things that can increase their position in the office and they do anything to prove that they are a good person in front of arbiter. I am afraid if this disease will infect to me. It is dangerous.

YOU RIGHT. .

today someone told me that i have to struggle and i have to change my nature. this is not my world, so, i cant force my desirability to everyone. everyone have their ways to achieve their achievement. i have to realize that if i still think too much about other people that will kill my self.
i am stupid, but the valuable thing that i get today are, i know about my weaknesses and i know what i have to do for solve this problem. i have to change my nature, i have to be good person, keep my smile for everyone.
wish me luck

my idealism. .

you can see the straight way in front of you, and to achieve this way you need idealism in your life. everyone have idealism as their guide in their life. i build my idealism from senior high school, and i know that my idealism is my way and my way is my life. i will keep it as long as i can.
i have to struggle, today many think can be happen, i know i am not strong enough and i have to learn about life more and more. i realize that life is not easy, to be success many think that i have to do. .
maybe, i will start my effort from now, i build my stairs one by one. i hope by this way i can to achieve that straight way. wish me luck

my Blog. .

Today, i realize that i have to make some creation to develop my ability in writing. although its not my habit but i have to. because my girlfriend is the best in this kind of activity and i dont want to be a loser. .hehe
i'll do anything to be better than her. .she is the best but i am better than her. .hahaha

i think too much. .